Update 5-11-15

It's been quite a while since I've written an update about Rick. We have had so many setbacks that I felt like getting my hopes up would be setting us up for disappointment. I think today was a good day. A very good day in fact! Rick had another drain removed and is down to only 1 left!! There's still pain but that decreases as the drains are removed. All blood tests have just about come back into normal range. Now we need to focus on gaining weight, stamina and energy. I've been cooking to help him gain weight but the downside is, I have too!! Makes me a little nuts at times lol. I'm hoping the appetite comes back soon because I'm sure he would feel so much better. We are hoping that he can go back to work in a few weeks, even if it's just part time to start. I'm sure getting back into a routine will help in recovery also! It reminds me of when I tell myself I'm going to start exercising or running. It sucks getting started when you're not motivated but after you do it, you feel a million times better! It's just forcing yourself to find the energy and motivation to do it!! 

This has been the roughest 6 months of our marriage. I don't even think deployment was this difficult! Seeing the person you love sick and in so much pain and being helpless and unable to do anything is absolutely horrible. My faith in everything I hold dear has been tested but I still hold on, even if it's by just a thread. I will not give up even when I cannot see the future. There is always hope and love.